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Starting 2013

So, the end of 2012 went out with a big, nasty bang.  Not the fun kind of bang that you expect to see on New Year’s Eve with explosions and things like that, but more of a sad, drama filled “Season Ending Cliffhanger” kind of bang.  You know, one of those situations where everything seems up in the air and nothing will be settled until it picks up again next year?

That’s how 2012 ended for me.

Friday was meant to be my last workday for the year. Then I’d have a great 4 day weekend before starting work for 2013. Friday afternoon at 4:30 (the very end of the work day) the owners of our company pulled us into a meeting to announce that we were all officially laid off. They sold the company. The new owners will be in on the 2nd to interview us and decided if they want to hire us back, but until then, we’re all 100% officially unemployed.

So, my four day weekend wasn’t so much a nice short vacation between the extremely busy weeks of rebuilding the network and database before going back to real work, it was a condemned waiting period before finding out if I even still have a job.

It’s extremely nerve wracking.

I don’t know what my future holds, and worse, I’m not sure what I want.

I’m not sure I want them to keep me on.

I’m not sure I want to stay in Kansas City.

I’m not sure of anything at the moment.

That’s how I’m going into 2013.

 

Unsure.

We’ll see where it goes from here.

Published by M.A. Brotherton

M.A. Brotherton is a writer, blogger, artist, and fat-kid from the suburbs of Kansas City, Missouri. He’s tasted a little bit of everything the Midwest has to offer, ranging from meth-tweaking rednecks in massive underground cave complexes to those legendary amber waves of grain. When he’s not writing, he spends most of his time screwing around on the internet.

10 thoughts on “Unsure for 2013”

  1. smallstate says:

    Whoa. Well, that is one ass-cake on a plate. oy. I\’m just wishing they gave something SWEET like the Brits get (they call it \”Gardening leave\” and it usually lasts 6 months to a year). Sadly this is Ass-merica (did I use that word already?) and so wasn\’t it nice of them to treat you to this New Year\’s delight?

    I am sorry. I have tons o tons of thoughts for you (Paris is lovely this time of year), but all that is up to you.

    Getting your butt out of town is a great idea, however…

    1. M.A. Brotherton says:

      Well, they did offer me a job today and I took it, so no Paris for me. I’ll keep it in the back of my mind though.

  2. Brandee Baltzell says:

    DAMMIT! I am SO sorry, Matt. I wondered why we hadn\’t heard from you much over the weekend.

    Hoping that this just means that something MUCH better is on the horizon for you!

    1. M.A. Brotherton says:

      The last couple of weeks have been mega busy for me. I’m just now starting to have time to get caught up.

  3. Stereo.* says:

    Aw hell, MB, I\’m so sorry. After the last few weeks of work woe, for this to happen is just supremely shitty. I will be praying that everything works out and of course if you need to vent, just let a sister know.

    1. M.A. Brotherton says:

      Thanks. It all seems to have worked out pretty well in my favor actually. I took a small pay cut, but, because they pay my insurance entirely I’ll actually be bringing more home.

  4. Tracy Mangold says:

    I\’m really sorry Matt. I know this sucks. I know the timing is not opportune. BUT I think it may be a blessing in disguise. It may be the universe\’s way of nudging you forward into something better. Easy to say, yes I know. But the road is open. The path is clear. What is your deepest desire? What is your passion? Follow your heart. I know you aren\’t sure what you want but sometimes it takes an event like this to reveal that very answer. Embrace it the best you can. I know I know. So much easier to say than do and to be laid off is not funny – it\’s no joke and it is downright scary. But what can you do but take it for what it is and make the most of it? You are so incredibly talented and have so very much to offer. Now is the time to capitalize on those skills. You should have a decent portfolio of your artwork (doodles) by now. Start putting it out there. I mean REALLY out there, Matt. Now is the time. Keep us posted. Keep your chin up. Things will get better. I have to believe they will. HUGS, my friend. BIG HUGS and yes, you know we are all here for you.

    1. M.A. Brotherton says:

      The biggest problem is I have no idea HOW to put it out there beyond what I’m already doing.

  5. Meredith S says:

    Well then, what would you choose to do if you had it your way? Maybe this is a good thing. Maybe you can make this big, ugly lemon into some epic limoncello. Because lemonade is clichéd and limoncello tastes like lemon warheads dissolved into a liquidy delight. Good luck this year! Hoping 2013 is bringing epic awesomesauce for you hidden behind the fail that 2012 left off on.

    1. M.A. Brotherton says:

      I sure hope I can leave all of the fail in 2012.

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