Emotional Games Destroy Lives

I hate romantic relationships.

I am incredibly bad at them. I don’t play emotional games or tolerate drama for the sake of drama. I don’t put up with childishness1. That seems like something you should be able to defend, saying, “Bravo for you!” Too many people revel in juvenile children’s games and pretend that is how relationships work. It’s a real issue in the world. I encourage everyone to do their best to move beyond that.

The problem here, though, is that I am often so egotistical and arrogant that I always assume I am reading a situation properly. I always assume that when I see childish bullshit, it is in fact, childish bullshit. That’s not always the truth. Sometimes there are real problems, and instead of addressing them and moving on, I get frustrated and annoyed. It’s easy for me to get frustrated and annoyed. Frustrated Matt is Angry Matt, and Angry Matt doesn’t listen to anybody’s crap.

I’ll shank a bitch if I have to.

So, yeah, I’m bad at relationships. I’ve been in many of them, and most of them have some sort of enormous explosion at the end that leaves everyone going, “WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED?”

Honestly? I did, again.

I don’t like hurting people, especially people I care about, but it seems like something completely inevitable.

I’m not sure I’m meant to be one of those people that is part of a couple. I don’t think I need it.

To be honest, I’m perfectly content being alone. I don’t think there is anything wrong with that. I’m a little tired of being judged because of it.

So, there it is. I’m giving up on them. I’ve got plenty of friends and companionship from people that aren’t going to require me to go through some sort of stupid bullshit every few days because they don’t feel validated without the drama.

I have too much being awesome to do to waste time playing games.


This post has been part of the Scintilla Project.

1) One of 319 Reasons Why I should never Have Kids.

14 thoughts on “Emotional Games Destroy Lives

  1. I prefer being alone, but for some reason, every now and then, love chooses it’s next victim at random. Then it all starts over again. I’ll try a few more times before I seriously start considering castration.

    1. I don’t like to make too deep of plans for the future. That never really works out in my favor. Instead, I just like to flow with the momentum of life and see where everything ends up.

      That said, I’d be perfectly happy alone, or with someone else who would also be perfectly happy alone.

      I’m a distant person. If someone is going to be in my life, they pretty much have to be cool with that.

      If I never find someone like that, oh well. I’m not out anything.

  2. Inkytwig says:

    When it is right though, it will work and it will be good. You will just know. It will blindside you and give you the greatest joy you have ever known – if it is meant to be. You deserve such wonderfulness in your life.

    1. I don’t think it will, though. I’m perfectly happy alone. Usually happier than I am when I’m part of a couple. I don’t need another person to give me a fulfilled life, and I need the opposite of whatever it is to have someone need me to feel fulfilled.

  3. Amanda Guay says:

    The last line of this post is my new motto.

    1. I hope it serves you well. I know it does some real good for me. 

  4. Jason Benoit says:

    I am right there with you my friend, right there with you. 

  5. Stereo.* says:

    I mean, if you truly want to be alone and are happy with that then I say go for it and more power to you but I wouldn’t want you to give up on relationships because of perceived “mind games”. You have me and other female buddies to give you unlimited advice on this sort of shiz. And you KNOW I would have no qualms saying “nah, that bitch is crazy – time to cut her loose.” A relationship sherpa, if you will.

    1. Thus far in life, I feel like I’m either incredibly bad at taking the spirit of advice over the letter of it, or people are amused by my anguish and thus steer me into making bad decisions.

      Ignore me, I’m having a paranoid morning…

      They happen, it’s not just me. Seriously.

  6. Stereo.* says:

    And because we are friends, this service would be free of charge to you.

    No that’s a lie. You’d have to buy me ribs if we ever have the fortune of meeting each other in person.

    1. Ok. But, if I’m going to buy you ribs, we’re getting KC style Barbecue. No doubt.

  7. Sandi Amorim says:

    Focus on the “being awesome” and everything will be fine. 

    1. I think if everyone focused on being awesome instead of getting laid, the entire universe would be a better place.

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