15 Minutes #Trust30

We are afraid of truth, afraid of fortune, afraid of death, and afraid of each other. Our age yields no great and perfect persons. – Ralph Waldo Emerson

You just discovered you have fifteen minutes to live.

1. Set a timer for fifteen minutes.
2. Write the story that has to be written.

(Author: Gwen Bell)

I have a will, and I tell my story everyday. In the composition book next to my bed, I have written letters to the people that need to know things, how I feel, passwords to websites, one last blog post.

As morbid as it may seem, preparing these things, and revisiting and updating them every-so-often actually helps me relieve a little bit of anxiety. I know that if something happens to me, then at least I have taken care of everything I could.

So, instead of writing something amazing and poetic, I decided to spend 15 minutes doing something to make the people I leave behind smile.

 

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15 Minutes means no time to Vector the Line Art, Color it, or Cell Shade it. So you get a rough sketch I snapped a picture of with my cell phone.

I hope they us this image at my funeral, after all, I started doodling because I don’t like having my picture taken, I always look horrible.

 

 

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Ok, I'll admit that I couldn't help it. It took another 2 hours, and finished the picture. Now I can go back on my way to doing fun things, like kicking puppies.

 

 

5 thoughts on “15 Minutes #Trust30

  1. I have to say…I never would have thought of it that way. Without your explanation, if I had come across your letters and stuff, I would find it really morbid, and I’d worry that you wanted to hurt yourself. Knowing that it gives you some sort of peace of mind, I guess, helps me to understand it better.

    I like the doodle, but I much prefer you here!

    1. Hmm… I’ve never actually thought of it that way. I just figure it’s part of being ready in case of emergency, like having a will. Really, though, the idea came to me from someone with terminal cancer. At the heart, the idea isn’t about the writer, but about everyone the writer cares for. It’s also cathartic in the writing because it lets you put down on paper things that you might not ever have the courage to say to someone. I guess when I write something down like that I’m hoping that I can build up the courage to say those things to those people while I’m still here.

      Some of them might not ever get to hear those words, and that might not be a bad thing, but some of them are things that I need to say but I haven’t been able to yet. I guess I’d rest easier knowing that even if I’m never strong enough to say them in life, that sometime (fingers crossed for centuries) down the road, they’ll hear them anyway, even if I’m gone (Interstellar Robot Body).

      1. brandeewineb says:

        I’m torn. Having lost someone very suddenly, in a very startling manner (suicide) I would perhaps have liked to have something…some sort of words of explanation or something. In dealing with a family member battling a grave illness, we’re learning to say our “I love you’s” now.

        This is a very tough subject, but food for thought!

  2. Stereo.* says:

    Brandee actually took the words right out of my mouth. I guess I would find it odd to find a book full of thoughts on and preparations for death; a will is one thing but having planned the last words to say to someone (especially since you’re so young!) might freak me out some! The way you explained it makes sense of course but I’d still worry that that person I loved who was healthy and happy was spending too much time thinking about the end of their life rather than enjoying living their life. So yup, I’m torn too! Much to think about here.

    1. I can see why someone would be concerned, but I use my journals in general as a way of dealing with the emotional roller coaster that is my crazy brain. I think someone that just sat down and started reading through my personal journals would probably be pretty jaded to some of my more disturbing trains of thought by the time they got to that one.

      We all cope with things in our own ways. Maybe it’s not the most healthy thing in the world to think about what you might not ever get a chance to say to someone again, but then again, sometimes that pushes you to actually say it. I do know that it isn’t healthy to keep things bottled up inside you.

      You guys should give it a try. You might be surprised when you realize exactly what it is you want to say to some of your loved ones. It might even push you to saying it.

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